I have this BIG FEAR that i might say the wrong thing. I don’t like when people don’t understand me. I’m sorry to say this but I actually care what people think of me. I censor my thoughts to the point that sometimes I don’t even think they’re mine. I’d rather make you happy by saying what you think i’m gonna say than piss you off by saying what i really wanna say. I care too much. And by doing so, I’m losing myself. I wanna be able to express myself, more than just on paper or through text. I don’t want my only sanctuary to be through a pen or on a computer. I wanna be able to know that my friends are my friends because they get me, not because they think they get me. I wanna say the person that fell in love with me ACTUALLY fell in love with ME. I need to figure out ways to speak my mind more. i think that’s the first step to finding out what i really want out of my life and not what everyone expects out of my life…